1. Are flowers a nice gift to give someone? If the person you are giving the flowers to actually likes flower, then yes, the flowers would be a nice gift.
2. Do you wear any jewelry? Every now and then I wear a necklace my son gave me.
3. Have you ever laid in a field of flowers? Yes, I have. I was amazingly peaceful.
4. Do you like tea? Yes.
5. What would you do with a million dollars? Pay off all my debt.
6. What word do you have trouble saying? I have problems with a few words, but I can't remember which ones! I think I need a nap.
7. Favorite fairy tale? Thumbelina
8. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Not any more. I did until I was in my 20's.
9. Do you prefer the city or the country? I prefer the country but not too far out in the country.
10. Are you a big fan of makeup? No.
11. Favorite drink? Coffee
12. What’s the longest amount of time you’ve stayed awake? 36 hours
13. Have you ever traveled outside of your country? No.
14. Do you like spring? Yes
15. Lipstick or lip gloss? Lip gloss
16. Favorite color? Blue
17. Do you like to decorate? Not at all.
18. Do you ever go barefoot when you’re outside? Yes
19. Are aliens real? Yes
20. Does you zodiac sign fit your personality? For the most part it does.
21.Favorite sea animal? dolphin
22. Are you a nice person? Yes
23. Favorite word? "Indeed"
24. Night or day? Night
25. What would make you happy right now? Nothing I can think of.
I read an article from Still Standingmagazine titled, "My Son Died But He is Still Here". Some words from this article, which may be out of context to the article, but are how I feel and what I think.....
"I am a grieving mother. My son died. I know he is physically gone from this world. Yet, I assure you he is not gone. Let me also say, he is not “looking down, watching over us”. Don’t tell me he “will always be in our hearts”. He is not in some faraway place waiting for us to be reunited. When I say that, it is not in the sense of remembering him or keeping his memory alive. Nor is it wishful thinking. I promise you it is no grief hallucination."
My son died. I feel his death every day. I think about him every day. I miss him so much that I have physical pain from missing him.
He is never coming home. He will never walk through the front door with his beautiful smile on his face. He will never say, "I love you Mama", again.
I will never hug him again. I cannot pick up the phone to call him. I will never hear his voice.
This is the new me. I am the smile behind daily tears. I have lost part of my sole and I will never get it back. I will never get him back.
I love you Richard Colt Hazlett. I loved you from the moment I found out I was pregnant and I will love you until I take my last breath.
What did you do last year that you had not done before? I moved to a new position in my office, taking on new responsibilities.
Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions/goals for the year and will you make/set more for next year? What are they? What are your new ones? I did not make any New Year's Resolutions and I do not plan to make any this year.
Did anyone you know give birth? Or become pregnant? Or adopt? I know a few ladies that gave birth, and a few that are pregnant. I do not know of anyone that adopted a child.
Did anyone you know die? Or have a serious illness/injury? I lost several relatives and friends this year, nearly all of them to cancer. I also know a few that are currently dealing with serious injuries and/or illness.
What places have you visited? I went out of state a few times for business.
Any new pets? Lost a pet? No new pets and I have not lost a pet this year.
What would you like to have next year that you lacked this year (doesn't have to be a physical thing i.e. love, job security, peace of mind...)? To see my family more.
What date from last year will remain etched in your memory and why? November 8th...it was my son's 26th birthday, which was the 3rd birthday he was not here with me for us to celebrate his day.
What was your biggest achievement last year? My job promotion.
Did you get sick or injured? I twisted my knee last month, hurt my arm a few weeks ago and had the flu earlier this year.
What was the best thing you bought? My new Jeep.
Where did most of your disposable income go (money leftover after you pay for food, medical care, basic clothing, transportation and shelter)? Video games, books, dog treats.
What song will always remind you of last year? Doesn't have to be a song released last year. The Sound of Silence by Disturbed. I listen to it every day.
What do you wish you would have done more of? More of enjoying life.
What do you wish you would have done less of? Less worrying.
What was your favorite new TV program? Movie? Album/Songs? Or if you didn't pick up any new ones, what are you still watching/listening to? Any recommendations? I enjoy the Imagine Dragons, and Disturbed. I recommend the new Disturbed album titled, "Evolution".
What was the best book you read this year? How many did you read? I have read at least 40 books this year. (I need to get them all added to my Goodreads account). None of them stood out as being the best book of the year though.
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you? Did you feel differently? I turned 48 on my birthday. I didn't do anything special. I feel different with every birthday I celebrate. I don't want to get older, it just puts me one step closer to death. Death scares me. I do NOT want to die...ever.
What political or social issue stirred you the most? The whole Me Too movement.
Who was the most interesting new person you met? No one I can think of.
What changed at your job? I got a raise and my own office.
What changed in your home? I got a newer Jeep and my husband got a new truck to drive.
Describe how a relationship changed. Death changes any relationship.
Do you think you are still the same person that you were at the beginning of the year? How so? I am not the same person I was at the beginning of the year. I become more and more quiet as the days pass, and tend to stay lost in my head.
Summarize the year in three words or less. Bonus points for doing it in one word. Explain. Depressing. Too many family members and friends are dying. I feel like my childhood memories are being ripped away.
How have people around you changed? People seem to be more distant, which I noticed started right after the death of my son.
What have you learned throughout the year? I learned (again) that not everyone has the same heart I have.
What was your favorite outfit for warm weather? Cooler weather? Sweat shirt, sweat pants and thick socks when it id cold out. For warm weather I like a thin tee-shirt, thin slack type pants, no shoes and no socks.
Did you learn any new crafts or techniques? What was your favorite thing you made? I did not learn any new crafts or techniques. Favorite thing I made....homemade mac & cheese.
What changed about your physical appearance? I have more gray hair and I am fatter.
What are your hopes and dreams for the new year? More time with family, travel more.
2 (1 lb.) boxes powdered sugar
1/2 c. hot mashed potatoes, drained
1 sm. jar crunchy peanut butter
Mix sifted sugar into potatoes a little at a time by hand. (Don't panic when potatoes liquify as the first sugar is added. This is what it's supposed to do. Just keep adding sugar until it is pastry consistency.) Sprinkle wax paper with additional powdered sugar. Take baseball-sized ball of mixture and roll out like pastry. Spread with peanut butter and roll like a jelly roll. Wrap rolls in plastic wrap.
The world lost another beautiful soul today. My cousin, Eric Tiefenauer passed away.
Visitation: December 22, 2018; 10:30 AM to 1:00 PM; Bryson Funeral Home in Pilot Knob, Missouri.
Celebration of Life: December 22, 2018 at 1:00 PM; Bryson Funeral Home in Pilot Knob, Missouri.
Interment: December 22, 2018 at Polk Cemetery in Arcadia, Missouri.
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Eric Eugene Tiefenauer of Pilot Knob, Missouri passed away December 19, 2018 at his residence at the age of 50 years. He was born June 13, 1968 in Farmington, Missouri the son of the late Harold and Alma (Pinkley) Tiefenauer.
In addition to his parents, Eric was preceded in death by his sister, Laura McMullin.
Eric was a 1986 graduate of Arcadia Valley High School. For many years he worked delivering auto parts for New Century Salvage. Eric enjoyed baseball, driving race cars, hunting, fishing, and music. He especially enjoyed being a roadie for the Two Lane Highway band.
Ingredients:
1 cup sugar
1 cup peanut butter, any style
1 egg
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. 2. Cream together sugar, peanut butter and egg. (Mixture will start to form a ball). Add vanilla. Using a cookie scoop or 2 teaspoons, spoon out mounds of cookie dough on an ungreased cookie sheets. Using a fork (or cookie stamp!)press cookie in a criss-cross pattern. Bake for about 13 minutes. Let cool on cookie sheet for 2-3 minutes, then cool completely on rack
Forget New Year’s Resolutions. Scrap that long list of goals you won’t remember a few weeks from now anyway!
Choose just one word. One word you can focus on every day, all year long… One word that sums up who you want to be or how you want to live. One word. 365 days. A changed life.
Last Saturday, the Holiday Train was scheduled to go through the town I live in here in Wisconsin. The train tracks run right in front of my house, so Shelby and I sat outside in the warm truck and waited for the train to come by. Shelby was more interested in looking at her reflection in the window of the truck. She completely missed the train going by, but that is ok.
favorite novel and author? Gone With the Wind is my favorite novel. Currently, my favorite author is Lee Child. I also like James Patterson, Dean Koontz, Stephen King, Dan Brown and several others.
favorite perfume/scent? I like Tommy Girl as a perfume. My favorite scent is lilac.
coffee or tea? Coffee in the morning and tea in the afternoon/evening.
are you a cat or dog person? I like dogs and cats but I prefer dogs.
which mythical creature would you transform into if you could? A unicorn.
favorite time period? Bedtime! LOL Otherwise I like the Digital Era.
name 3 films that have changed your life and have shaped you into the person you are today. None that I can think of.
diamonds or pearls? Pearls
what’s your biggest dream? My biggest dream is to be immortal. At this time that seems impossible so I dream to be happy and live a long life.
dream destination? Ireland
favorite fictional character? Scarlet O'Hara from Gone With The Wind
share a quote or passage that means something to you. “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr.
what’s your favorite plant/flower? Lilacs
do you prefer the forest or the ocean? why? I like the ocean because the sound of the waves lapping at the shore make me sleepy/sleep better.
Over the weekend, it snowed here is Wisconsin. I took a few photos while standing inside my warm house. I really need to get out of the house and take photos of the beautiful Wisconsin country side.
