Moments of Introspection

September 30, 2024

Eye Roll and De-Stuffing

I told Riley that I had a headache and I wanted to rest for a bit.

I swear she rolled her eyes at me before grabbing her toy and started ripping out the stuffing.

September 29, 2024

Sunday Stealing for 29 September 2024

Welcome to this week's Sunday Stealing!

1. What do you want to be remembered for?

I want people to remember that I tried my best. I screwed up a lot but I kept trying to get things right.

2. If you were put in solitary confinement for a year, what would you do to stay sane?

I would try to sleep as much as possible and during my waking hours I would pace around.

3. If you could have video of any one event in your life, what event would you choose?

I would need more than one. I would like one video of my son, one of my daughter and one of my husband each from a time when we were happy.

4. What are the top 3 things you want to accomplish before you die? Have you accomplished them?

5. If you were forced to live one 10-minute block of your life again and again, what 10 minutes of your life would you choose.

I would choose to live 10 minutes of when my family and I went to Six Flags in 2004. It was a great day and I feel everyone had a great time.

6. Have you ever saved someone’s life?

I saved my husband from choking on a bratwurst many years ago.

7. What are you addicted to?

Diet Pepsi, and making plastic canvas creations.

8. What keeps you up at night?

Everything.

9. What do you regret not doing?

I regret not being with my son when he died. I should have never left his side.

10. What gives your life meaning?

My dog and my job.

11. What are you most insecure about?

Everything.

12. What’s the most illegal thing you’ve done?

Driving too fast and being a horrible mother.

13. What’s the most surprising self-realization you’ve had?

Not long after my husband died, I was sitting on the couch mindlessly scrolling through social media when I realized I was completely alone. In the first time in the 53 years of my life, I was 100% alone in my house. No kids, no spouse, no parents, no human in my house other than me. It was a deep shock to my soul....and resulted in a panic attack.

14. If you could make one rule that everyone had to follow, what would it be?

Be nice to everyone and everything! It costs nothing to be nice!

15. In what situation or place would you feel most out of place?

Large crowds alway make me feel out of place. I get very uncomfortable and start to panic when I am in large crowds.